Life and Lemonade.

I'm sitting here, sipping on watered down lemonade at two in the morning.
I dont have any cute stories about squeezing the lemons and googling the correct amount of sugar.
BECAUSE I HAVENT COOKED IN FOREVER.
I miss it. =/

However, I want to blog anyways.
Is that okay? =P

Last week I was a little down.
Life felt out of balance.
I love my boyfriend, but he seemed to be the only relationship I was doing right.
And I cant have that.
I cant be that girl.
I dont want to be that girl.
I need my friends.
To tell me I'm dumb, to whine about Jordan with, to have sleepovers with.
I need them.
More than they know.
Hell, probably more than I know.
So I'm working on relationships
The cooking one, the broken one, the faded one, the lost one.
I'm going to fix my life.
Because I can.

It's Been A While.

Life has been a little crazy lately.
Not filled with crazy moments and experiences.
Just out of balance; crazy.

I wish life was more like cooking.
One time, I was making bread crumbs for cornflake chicken with Destinee.
As I went to "dash" some pepper, it turned into something more like "dump."
We laughed. We started over.
Why can't life be that easy?

Me and my boyfriend broke up.
For like, five minutes.
But knowing that even for five minutes he didn't want to be with me anymore kills.
And the worst part is; I couldn't even bring myself to tell anyone.
Not Destinee. Not Ryan. Not my mom.
No one.
Because even though he's still mine and I'm still his.
It still hurts.
It's not something you laugh about like spilled pepper and too much oil in your brownies.

On a lighter note, our last cooking adventure was fabulous (:
We made corn flake chicken and au gratin potatoes.
We fried it and everything.
The food was okay.
But not our best.
However, how we ate it was all the difference.

I work at a local movie theater.
It's an okay job, even if I'm making minimum wage.
However, one benefit is sometimes I'm allowed to watch movies before they come out.
For example, that night my manager let me sneak Destinee in and watch Eclipse
We brought food for everyone and they loved it.
So even though me and Destinee were slightly dissapointed in the outcome the fact that everyone else loved it totally made up for it.

Sidenote; Destinee has been out of town for what feels like forever I miss her. Cooking will resume shortly.